I hate to get involved in a dead-end relationship when you know, and you’re conscious of what you're doing.
You get involved knowing that in the end or at some point you’re going to start looking for the next best thing.
So, when I think about a boyfriend or a partner, I like to look at that person as …hmm lets say the future father of my babies. Like an investment or a business partner. You wouldn’t pick a partner that fucks around with other businesses right?
I don’t have a lot of experience with this…but I don’t know how much is A LOT anyway…
The first time…here we go… I got turned down… was, well, I’m not going to go into details, but the guy said…and these were his exact words “If you were my girlfriend, I would spoil you like a little girl, I would hold you all night long. I would wanna see you every second of the day. But I just…don’t have time for it.”
Oh and he kept going…
“I should start putting together my art portfolio, but I don’t have time. I should have dinner with my mother, but I don’t have time. I should start recording my album, but I don’t have time for that either. I barely sleep. I’m sorry…I just I don’t have time.”
I was just there. Silent.
“Uh…are you ok?” he asked.
“I’m still breathing…so I must be fine.” And that’s all I could say.
So the next guy that comes with half ass excuse like that… you better be careful.